the unsent letter 信

Aku menunggumu.
Mungkin sudah terlalu lama, menunggu kamu yang aku sendiri bahkan tak tahu sampai kapan. Satu tahun, dua tahun, bahkan sosokmu aku pikir lebih berharga dari waktu berapapun lamanya. Tidak mengapa, Cantik.. Jika kamu tak pernah tahu rasanya menunggu, akupun tidak akan menyuruhmu merasakan menjadi aku meski sebentar. Pergilah, Cantik, sesukamu. Seperti yang kamu lakukan selama ini. Pergilah.. menjadi apapun, menjadi siapapun yang kamu mau. Aku akan terus menunggumu, memeluk sisi-sisi terrapuhmu. Memberimu sandaran dan menjadi tempat pijakan ketika kamu lelah dan kesepian. Dan ketika kamu ingin berhenti, kamu tidak harus kembali. Aku yang akan menyusulmu.

Aku,

Yang masih menunggu.

Aku ingin pulang

Mungkin sudah terlalu lama aku berjalan sendirian. Ada banyak sekali cerita yang ingin kubagi dan seseorang yang ingin kutemui. Satu tahun, dua tahun, entah berapa lama sejak kuputuskan untuk meninggalkan apa yang membuatku nyaman. Aku ingin pulang, secepatnya, tapi perjalanan yang kutempuh sudah terlalu jauh. Aku tersesat dan aku takut. Perjalananku tak aman lagi. Aku lelah dan aku rapuh. Aku merindukan apa yang telah lama kutinggalkan. Mungkin kamu, mungkin juga senyumanmu, atau pelukanmu. Entahlah, yang aku tau aku ingin pulang kepada sosok yang memelukku dalam doanya, yang tidak membiarkanku kesepian ketika perjalanan ini kutempuh sendirian. Yang selalu menungguku. Kamukah ?

Aku,

Yang masih ingin pulang.

Hey Idiot, I love you

He's my guardian, the lovable one I have ever found.
He knows how to treat me like a lady and also a little girl at the same time.
He said I was purer than dew, even protect me as if I was his porcelain doll.
Maybe he can't always here-beside me, and sometimes I just want to be alone, but one thing I know, he doesn't let me be lonely.
I feel so blessed, because I don't have to do anything to get his attention, to steal his heart, to make he loves me
So thank God.. He's such my precious diamond. The most special gift ever. The best thing in me.

Ia

Ia terlalu mudah jatuh cinta.

Pada seorang pria yang menjanjikan bahagia.

Lalu diberikan apapun yg dia punya

Ia terlalu dini jatuh hati.

Namun sang pria membuktikan diri

Bahwa ia tak layak dicintai

pict by weheartit

Things I've learned

I need my 'me' time, some drama, some sleep, some new dresses, some unexpected holiday because you know, girls just wanna have fun

First semester has ended. 2012 has ended. Time flies soo fast. And I just sitting here, reminiscing what has changed after all. Am I still in my freshman year? I have experienced a lot of things during this semester, I mean a lot of 'new' things. Also meet a lot of new friends I've never imagined.
As a college student, sometimes situation forces me to open my mind, be more mature than before. I've never planned it to be like this, really. Yeah, the 'new' me has learned many things.
I've learned that life begins when you decide to leave your comfort zone, take some responsibilty and start to make a change.
I've learned that this world is not just spinning around you. It's not only about your life, your family, your feeling, your viewpoint.
I've learned that what you think is right, other people maybe see it otherwise.
The example is, I never thought I could know someone like him. I've raised in an Islamic culture with religious tolerance but, he's an atheist. He has his own thought and made his decision at a very young age. He changed my viewpoint about an atheist. I thought a man who doesn't believe in God is a cruel, a criminal that has no feeling, but that's not true. He's such a kind person.
I've learned that in this crazy world, there are some people who really has an alter ego.
Oh oh I also have learned to make money, one thing I really want to do since a long long time a go.
Thanks to some new people in the college who teaches me how to see the world in a different way.
A lot of things happened. If only the 'old' me knew what hapenned to me now..haahaa...
And this is me, still trying to leave my comfort zone, trying something new.

Now, I'm no longer called as 'MABA' again.. Sometimes I miss that day when I started to be a freshman year student.... Hope the best for the next semester.